Of Seawater & Sunsets

It was a nice trip. :) Lots of precious memories made–things I hope will not be forgotten.

The sky was really clear the first night we arrived–but sadly, no shooting stars! Just the almost-full moon and a few tiny, celestial bodies dotted around the black tapestry of the night sky.

The next day, despite the water being polluted with oil and teeming with algae, we had fun banana-leafing, banana-boating and kayaking. Then, when our bodies couldn’t take it anymore, we retired to the showers and collapsed into the sheets. We ate a lot–but the time spent with each other was good enough. It’s the people you go with that make a trip enjoyable.

Been a long, long time since a trip like this. But then again, it’s the same with every other trip–we go, not knowing what to expect, and then come back to the same old places but with different hearts. :) Humans are strange, and our hearts are oh-so-treacherous.

Storybook Sunset

The drive back from Putrajaya is a lengthy one, best accompanied by good music and an appreciative mind;

i drove through a storybook sunset only to end up back in reality

Those highways are often filled with strange drivers, many of whom make one wonder how they passed the driving test in the first place…

flashes of orange, grey, blue, yellow, red–discordant but poetically tragic, like a song

Made it home, following the occasionally aptly-placed signages, calling out for Petaling Jaya every time the toll bars lifted;

like the sinking colors hitting the clouds as they fall into place

It’s always satisfying pulling into the driveway and hearing the whirr-click of the electric gate

things are made more beautiful when kept for the right moment.

before leaving the quiet noise of the outside and retreating into the unmoving silence of my walls.

thank you, sayang.

Cocoon

This social butterfly is reverting back to her cocoon stage-

With exactly 3 weeks–21 days, count ‘em all–left before her CVS & Respi summative;

not forgetting the MEDT 1/09 orientation that she’s involved in for 2 of those weeks,

With a grand total of 65 lecture notes to cover;

and the YA night event–The Knight, the Princess & the Broken Mirror,

With a critical appraisal to write;

as well as the Jason Mraz concert on the 4th of March,

With the respiratory system pathology quiz to prepare for;

oh, and don’t forget the rehearsals for SIBKL’s Easter program!

With a ridiculous Moral class to deal with on top of it all.

It’s going to be one crammed cocoon, reinforced with much prayer, worship & downtime with the Big Guy above. There will be much–if not total–cessation of activity, beginning today.

Concentration has returned, much thanks to a big wake-up call (and kick in the arse) from Him.

My wings are exhausted and overflown.

p/s – I still love you guys, even though I may not always respond to your texts, MSN messages, calls, or invites to go out. I’ll get back to you after the 13th of March (D-day).

Banish the Clouds, Brighten the Day

When they tell say to save up for rainy days, they really aren’t pulling your leg. Quite the storm hit my area yesterday evening, and smoothly translated into a storm within my heart as well.

Am I overthinking? Perhaps. Is it difficult being the eldest? No, not in this case, because I’m prepared for it. If I am born eldest, I will step up and fill that role, not run and hide from my responsibilities.

“Every ambition is nipped in the bud, every desire of life quenched, every outlook completely extinguished and blotted out, saving one thing only–separated unto the Gospel.” – Oswald Chambers.

For far too long, I’ve allowed my desires to sweep me off my feet, and let my mind settle into a stagnant reverie which is slowly twisting its dark, sharp roots into my heart. The tree I imagined to be growing WAS beautiful, but now I see it does nothing but choke my breaths and blind my horizon.

Let me find my strength, Lord, in Your joy when I give you due obedience. Reorder my steps, and let me once again use Your Word as a light unto my path, for the rest of my days. I am human, with all my weaknesses and failings, and I’ve forgotten that for far too long. :( Teach me to run to You before I run to any other.

I can’t say exactly what brought this state of mind on, for privacy’s sake. I’m a heavy sleeper; it’s my long-due wake-up call.

I’m giving it up, again and again, until I learn to lose myself in You. These things are meant to try me, and allow me to refocus, remember, and restore myself by Your grace.

BRING IT ON. Don’t try and pull a fast one on me, world, with all your notions of tingling spines, heated nights, and caught breaths. >( I will stand in my Lord’s courts and deal with YOU, OKAY!?

Rain falls, heart soaks–then soul weighed down–
Another rainbow pinned to the ground;
Come wring it out, and let it dry
Then let it soar high in Your sky.