Gackt-sama in London!!!!

omg. Omg. OMG.

The honey-drenched voice in my dreams.

GACKT-SAMA IS COMING TO THE UK!! TO LONDON!!! IN JULY!!!! D: *SQUEEEAAAALLLLLLL*

AFTER ALL THESE YEARS OF LOVE!! FINALLY!!! THE CHANCE TO SEE MY BEAUTIFUL HERO AND BELOVED GACKT-SAMA LIVE IN THE FLESH!!!! IN THE FLESH!!!

DEAR GOD PLEASE LET ME BE POSTED IN EDINBURGH OR SOMEWHERE THAT I CAN GO TO LONDON IN THE MIDDLE OF THE WEEK PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE!!!

I NEED TO WATCH HIS CONCERT!!!!!!

DDD: GACKT-SAMA!!!!! WHY YOU NO COME TO EDINBURGH ALSO!? AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHH!!!!

Whenever the sun sets.

photo-heavy post! xx

It’s been a while! :) Since I last wrote, lots of things have happened, but most things have stayed unchanged. For example, the fact that I’m still in medical school (phew) hasn’t changed… though I will be done in 2 years! Rather exciting, yet nerve-wracking at the same time.

To sum up the two months between the last post and now, my boyfriend came to spend the entire spring break with me!

Fresh off the train. xx

Help me understand

Lord,

It’s only You who can help me understand these divisions, separations, and strange theories that man has cooked up about You.

It’s only You who can set aside the truths from the false, and show us the essential “why behind the what”.

Why is there a difference between Catholics and Protestants? I don’t understand the divisions, so please help me to understand. I know that You hold all the answers, not any mere man.

Please speak to me, and everyone else who seeks unity of all the believers.

Amen.

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On another note, meet my boyfriend, Patrick. <3 Ain’t he a looker? He also cooks, cleans, rows, and spoils me silly. xx

Kitty & Giraffey

Time Elapsed

:p sudah lama aku tak ber-blog. Sorry! Merry Christmas, Happy New year, Happy Chinese New Year, Happy Valentine’s day and all that shiz.

Edinburgh is still lovely, and less cold than when it was in winter. Nothing beats my experience in a Canadian winter, though. Haven’t even used the winter jacket I brought over–it’s now dumped into storage in the living-room closet.

My punter & I on the river Cam! He wasn't too happy about looking unglam in the life jacket.

I’ve been travelling a LOT. I went to Cambridge to visit a friend, and was awed by the 36 different colleges and how they fit together as the University of Cambridge… It’s a very pretty and quaint town, and punting on the river Cam was cold but fun. :) We also went to a beautiful orchard in Grantchester–which was, unfortunately, quite dead at this time of the year! I’ll be back in summer to have tea there again.

Portree harbour, Isle of Skye!

The flatmates and I went on a crazy impromptu roadtrip to the Isle of Skye! :D We saw highland cows, heaps of sheep, waterfalls, cliffs, rolling hills, countless lochs… Photos are on fb. Apart from that, it is a year of musicals… Since coming to Edin, I’ve watched this Glee tribute show, The Secret Garden, HAIRSPRAY!!!!, Annie, and am going to watch Fiddler on the Roof today, as well as Footloose tomorrow :)) Excitement excitement!!

Steph & I strutting the scrubs. Yeah, I'm having stress zits on my chin.

Have gone through my gastrointestinal and locomotor rotations and emerged (somewhat) unscathed! Hallelujah and praise God for the results I managed to get :) Still need to work on my clinical skills, but at least my theory is solid enough. Currently on my cardiovascular rotation, which is quite fun. :) Have an AMAZING professor guiding us (not that my previous two weren’t equally amazing).

Daniel and I were fairly amused that one of the cardio consultants we shadowed for an evening still games (WoW, Doom, etc)… FULLY INSPIRING. :) That has made up my mind to purchase Starcraft II after my cardio exam on the 11th of March.

My Valentine's surprise! :) a hand-made pendant, from old silver rings.

I had a good Valentine’s day :) received stuff that made me smile in the post, and had a nice long skype call.

Not much else to say, apart from the fact that I’m finally fitting into church and cell and whatnot… a year of new ventures! Instead of singing on the worship team, I am playing the keyboard (albeit somewhat badly). Everyone is very nice and forgiving :p

Till next time! xx

Sequestered Heart

I don’t know if what’s happened has made me too afraid. Most little things remind me and make me withdraw; not something I’d easily dive into again. There’s a new wariness cast over everything.

Don’t like it at all.

Why with you, and why at that time of all times?

Questions I’ll never know the answer to for a while–maybe even never.

But what i do know is that someday I’ll look back on this and laugh–laugh with the joy of a woman truly fulfilled and blessed–and know that it was meant to grow me.

This is what drives me to persevere.

Princess is twenty-two! :)

 

My cute birthday cake :)

:) The birthday has come and gone.

Thanks to everyone who sent me love and wishes. *chu & hugs for all of you!

Bring on August

Hello, August, my favourite month of the year becauseit’smybirthdaymonthandisawesomeeee. :)

AUGUST 8th FTW. :) starcraft2isout. OUT. beetches.

Tell her she’s beautiful.

:) AND more!

That’s a line from one of the entries on this absolutely cute, at times heart-warming, and at times heart-breaking blog, Letters to Crushes.

It seems to be a collection of different peoples’ thoughts about their crush that they never dared say, some even being a series of “letters” that culminate in the person going for it, and, often, succeeding. :)

Couldn’t resist sharing! It’s a sappy read, at times quite sombre when you hit the more mature “crushers” writing about their crush. Hah. Found out about it when Sean Sean twittered about it this afternoon. I’m on page 19 now, LOL.

Hopeless ol’ romantic me.

Of Seawater & Sunsets

It was a nice trip. :) Lots of precious memories made–things I hope will not be forgotten.

The sky was really clear the first night we arrived–but sadly, no shooting stars! Just the almost-full moon and a few tiny, celestial bodies dotted around the black tapestry of the night sky.

The next day, despite the water being polluted with oil and teeming with algae, we had fun banana-leafing, banana-boating and kayaking. Then, when our bodies couldn’t take it anymore, we retired to the showers and collapsed into the sheets. We ate a lot–but the time spent with each other was good enough. It’s the people you go with that make a trip enjoyable.

Been a long, long time since a trip like this. But then again, it’s the same with every other trip–we go, not knowing what to expect, and then come back to the same old places but with different hearts. :) Humans are strange, and our hearts are oh-so-treacherous.

Though I’ve never seen Him

Missed lecture(s) again, darn. And I was looking forward to the General Anaesthetics lecture, especially because I prepared by studying the Local Anaesthetics lecture… :/ Wanted to compare and contrast stuff (sorry, I’m nerdy like that).

Anyway, just thought I’d share again something I came across in today’s reading. This morning I was a bit down and was doing some thinking–something along the lines of completely placing things into His hands and letting go (sorry for being vague, but not a topic I’ll share publicly). Been doing a lot of that, but rather inconsistently. Questioned myself and my motives a lot.

Is it truly letting go if I behave as such and dream about things, allowing my imagination to travel down that road of “what-ifs” and “if-onlys”? Not really, no. It’s okay to dream, but I still have to bring it all back to His feet. If not, I’ll just be fooling myself and giving myself false motivation to pursue certain things. Rushing ahead of time. Like trying to drive without a licence or proper experience–you get into accidents.

Why am I “torturing” myself this way?

“You love Him even though you have never seen Him. Though you do not see Him now, you trust Him; and you rejoice with a glorious, inexpressible joy.”
– 1 Peter 1 : 8, NLT

Couldn’t have been expressed better, in my opinion.
It all comes down to the Bigger Reason. :)
The key is patience and quietness, waiting in the Lord.

But on a lighter note, MAY 15th is HUG YOUR CAT DAY. :)))

Meow. :3 Come find me on Saturday, plzkthx.

Productivity

It’s all very subjective. But I think I did a lot this weekend, in terms of catching up with studying and friends. :)

More than I’ve done in a while.

Was at my usual haunt for the weekend–Bad Ass Coffee (hereafter BAC). Had my usual–feels good to be able to go there and have the friendly baristas remember my order. Thanks for making my weekend awesome!

Surprise, surprise! Joel came to hang out / study with on Saturday. It’s been MONTHS since I saw this face–and lookit his so-fresh-so-clean face, thanks to new face anti-zit cream thing! Retin-A, I think he said. Updated each other on life, stuff, romance (or the lack thereof), IMUBJ vs. clinical school, and such. Miss you lah, friend. We need to jam together again. Sometime. Rock it out on stage, headbangin’. Good times!!

No more photos, but on Sunday it was Jonbear. :) Bumped into him after the service and we spontaneously decided to go for lunch at Ninja Joe’s! as well as study at BAC again. Heh. Was practically driving to Tropicana City when he called to ask where I was lunching. Go only lah! Haven’t caught him around IMU much anyway, what with being holed up in the library every weekday, all day. I miss being with the Bear family. :( Joooo beeaarrrr.

Happy Mother’s Day, mummeh. :)) Much love. Today. Everyday. All the days of my life.

When Jonbear left to go for dinner with Jobear, Akubear came to join me for our usual Sunday study sessions! By that time I was already getting saturated with studying. Finally (sorta) caught up with my CNS and MSK lectures–only have pharmaco left, ugh. Am still behind with the rest of Semester 4 and Semester 3, though. At this rate I’m only going to do patho lectures for Sem 3 (and select physiology lectures). Let’s not even talk about PBL topics.

It was all very relaxing, despite the amount of studying and stress questions Jonbear popped out while he was studying. Smack you lah, haha. :) All those trick questions.

Getting back to reading the Bible every day before I start studying has really helped. Definitely creates a certain aura of focus and concentration, as well as peace for any difficulties in memorizing / understanding. Nothing left but to just trust Him. No way I can humanly finish studying and remembering everything that’s been covered for the past 5 semesters. 

Coffee helps, too. :) Remember how? Methylxanthines antagonize the alpha-2 adrenoceptors in the brain, creating wakefulness (last page of Prof YPN’s neurotransmitter notes, in case you can’t remember).

Rate of blogging is inversely proportionate to time spent on Facebook.

(Time spent on Facebook is currently = 0)

Doom dates to keep in mind: 20th May – ICA5, 7th-10th June – EOS5.

Right, let’s do this.

I’m such a nerd.

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Till the suns and planets disappear
I could stay in your arms all year
Even if it means infinity through
If being productive is being with you
Then baby, I don’t want to waste another day. 

Not entirely certain, but what the hey!

It was really an onslaught of encouragements today, wound up by a fun jamming slash practice session for Friday’s Acoustic Night @ the Dance room (and some of the smoothest wine I’ve EVER tasted, mmm). It’s at 7 p.m., y’all. :) Do drop by and lend your support, or just hang out and enjoy some good, honest music.

Err, covered not very many notes at all, got owned in PBL by Dr. NKM (as usual), was sleepy as hell, and drugged out by my meds. Found a new sleeping spot. Sorry to those who encountered me in that sorry state.

I wish I can survive with 4 hours of sleep every day. That would give me so. much. time.

Mood seems to have passed. Thanks, everyone. :)

IMU Ball 2010 : Audacieux @ Royale Chulan

Previously, I blogged about the IMU Ball ’08 (Sensationale Symphony) & the IMU Ball ’09 (Clair de Lune).

This time around, it’s my ball, the IMU Ball 2010 : AUDACIEUX / dare to be, held at the Taming Sari Ballroom, Royale Chulan, Kuala Lumpur. :))) Carries a lot of significance and great memories. Of time spent in this little, converted shopping-mall-of-a-place for two and a half years, mugging medical books.

Click for more. :)

Happy Tiger New Year!

New year brings with it new things–some expected, some unexpected. 

Hope it’s been a fruitful ang-pau collecting period for all unmarrieds, and a very cheerful giving season for the marrieds. 

And I hope none of you stinged on loved ones just because Valentine’s day happened to fall on day one of the new year… Shame on you if you did! :p

Tiramisu

There comes a time when you look back at your old photos, your old diary, your old self even, and think–hey, I don’t know that person anymore.

You don’t think you look like that anymore–no more skirts-over-pants or jeans imported ideas from Japan.

Talk like that anymore–substantial, non-brain-drain conversations are the order now.

Think like that anymore–just don’t see how those things used to matter so much.

Act like that anymore–it’s tiring to be like that all the time.

There’re parts you can identify with, but not the whole. You still have those teardrop moles by your eyes, but those eyebags seem to be getting larger and darker. Things that have stayed the same, like your underwear collection, and things that have dramatically changed, like your circle of friends.

But that’s when you know you’ve moved on–been sifted through–into a different recipe, a different mix. Everything tastes different, mellower even. The essence of who you are has matured, being moved closer to the finished products hall of fame, that hangs up in the sky in some fantastic, mastercraft bakers’ land (I’d like to be tiramisu, please). I hope God has a sweet tooth (and a sense of humor). :)

Then you wonder…

If I meet someone from that time in my life, how different would it be?

Tricky question. Never know till it comes, and no use worrying. :) Life’s no RPG with a cheatbook telling you all the possible endings and what to do to get there.

Welcome to February, readers. :) It’s not a “new” year any longer.