The Day of Good Stuff

Today was a day of many good things. :) (The fact that my exam is tomorrow is not one of them.)

Good Thing #1: The Coffee Bean has officially stolen my heart, with the help of their Dark Chocolate Peppermint Latte. Just a few days ago, I ranted to Rae about how Starbucks has sucky Christmas drinks… because I don’t like toffee and I don’t like nuts. Little did I know, that my dream Christmas drink of minty dark chocolate + coffee was to come true the moment I stepped into a TCB outlet. :))) It has a rich, dark chocolatey taste, with a minty-fresh aftertaste. Good studying fuel!

Good Thing #2: Zhiven came back from the UK, and brought me a mini Paddington Bear!! THANK YOU UNCLE. :p Jo has its twin. I originally thought he wasn’t gonna, because he tweeted about how expensive they were, lol. It was a really nice, unexpected surprise. Paddy made me happy. :) Along with Iris, a little bear I’d been bringing.

Good Thing #3: M207’s convo mag came out, and it was thoroughly entertaining reading Pam’s copy. Made me feel nostalgic because a lot of my senior-friends are leaving… T__T It’s just not gonna be the same! Besides that, I got a few ideas for our mag layout & design… really excited to pitch them to the committee.

Good Thing #4: Mummy bought me suuuuushi for dinner. :))))) All-week craving finally satisfied!

Good Thing #5: Studying Revising was good today. :) Everything still feels like water running out of my head, but the idea of pouring more in is so that whatever remains is proportionally more than what would have remained had I not topped up… SOUNDS OPTIMISTIC EH.

It’s been really hard to trust God this time around, mostly because of personal problems, and a certain situation with a group of persons we shall deem “Q“. Q have created an aversion in me towards certain activities that I previously enjoyed. It’s been really dry, lonely, and difficult to get through this round of studies… And I can’t help but feel that it’s for a particular reason that will remain unsaid (but I know). =/ Things always happen for a reason. I’m so behind in my Bible-readings. It’s shameful lar… 

Feels like it’s a one-way conversation, but at this point, all I can do is surrender it all and just trust.

Thanks go especially to: my mommy, who painstakingly boiled soup + cooked + made me food + snacks whenever and wherever I demanded AND cleared out the study so I could use it AND listened to my daily rants and frustrations about my studies and people :p ; my daddy, who endured my barrage of questions about the female reproductive tract + funded my study snacks + quizzed me; twink, who sent me to uni the one day and provided me temp relief from the boredom of studying; didi, who teman-ed me on skype when I was bored and unable to study alone at home; imu friends and batchmates, for the random snippets of information, laughs, and quizzes; finally, GOD, who blessed me with all these wonderful, wonderful people in my life. :)))

LET’S KILL THE SUMMATIVE 4 TOMORROW!

MEDT BANG BANG BANGGG!!!!!

BS all December

[rant]

:(((((((((( COME ONNNNN.

I put LITERATURE as my first choice for selectives, and I get my LAST CHOICE, Psychology a.k.a. bee ass.

And on TOP of that, we get the SUCKIEST timetabling: AFTERNOON CLASSES FROM 2-6pm (on average). Ew. Ew. Ew. Ew. And EWWWWW.

One would think that to balance the horrible punishment of having to endure BS throughout the 3-week selective, they would at least give us a decent timetable that would leave us with most of the day free, i.e. 10am-12pm class slots, or 8am slots… you know?

I really wanted to do Oedipus. :( If anyone wants to switch with me, I’LL LOVE YOU FOREVER. AND I’LL DO ANYTHING. ANYTHINGGG.

Siggggh.

There. Is. A. Reason. For. Everything.
Everything.
everything.

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Back to endocrinology.

Never, Neverland

Things have really changed this year. Was just looking through my photo collection of the year and noticing how certain things have become so different.

For one, I miss this:

And this doesn’t happen anymore:

Haven’t seen this in a while, either:

The clock keeps ticking, and with every sweep of the hour, the old falls away like dust. Semester four is almost over. What, you mean we’ll be the oldest medical batch in IMU BJ soon!?

Feels like a Peter Pan complex–not wanting to grow up.

But herein lies the problem: what’s my never-never-land?

Sobriety shouldn’t come at such an hour.

The ego is the heart’s terror

Line comes from one of my all-time favourite songs, Let Go by m-flo loves yoshika, recently redone by another male Japanese artist in an m-flo TRIBUTE album.

What happens when pride gets in the way of love?

Ruined relationships.

:) hah.

So. Been studying recently (almost done with repro!! YES.), and procuring more music to fuel my studying concentration. Found myself listening to songs from the 90’s again. I want to go for karaoke… Or perform. Sing. Something like that. Singing in the musical is different–it’s repetitive and not something I completely enjoy. Vocals have decreased from lack of practice. :( And this chronic sore throat thing; I don’t like it.

I miss doing a LOT of things. :(((( 

Jippie emailed to ask when I’m free! :) He might be coming to visit, YAY! I hope he does come. Can’t wait to see him again and show him around this little tropical peninsula. GREAT EXCUSE FOR HOLIDAYS (especially beach ones), HEH HEH HEH. Maybe he’ll bring Snowie. :))) Snowieeee!

SORRY. I know I’m ranting. I’ve had a long day of nothing but penises and vaginas and discharges and infections… Something’s gotta give.

If I could play RO, I would, instead of ranting. Unfortunately, my RO’s still down with the “rebirthro.bin” error. :( Tried everything on the forums to save it, but nothing worked. I guess a full reinstall is in order. Woei Jin! Where’s the installer? >_>

And I banned myself from facebook. So the only places I can let go are twitter and here. 

I’m such a lazy pig. I know I’m not meant to do performing arts as a career. But I like bling photography / vids of myself… Is that considered narcissism? 

…why are Korean boyband members so perfect? :/ And local boys so…

/cough.

I reallyreallyreally like “manly” men, i.e. those with broad shoulders, tall, a deep voice, square chin +/- chin dimple (BEN BARNES DROOL DROOL DROOL), nice build, immaculate dressing sense, with a masculine scent, strong arms… And the list goes on. Semi-longish hair is nice too. :) It bugs me when guys don’t smell like guys… or if they smell like girls. Don’t ask me why! One of the first things I notice are peoples’ scents. If you don’t smell nice, male or female, I probably wouldn’t be hanging out with you, shallow as that might sound…

…

I think I need to shut up now. GOOD NIGHT WORLD.

From puberty to menopause

And suddenly thrown into pregnancy! (can you tell where I am in the notes journey?)

Progress with studying is so-so these few days, only because I haven’t had rehearsals (except for Tuesday night). Repro is surprisingly much easier to digest and understand than endocrine, BRRRR.

This time around, I’ve become severely dependant on coffeecoffeecoffee to sustain my wakefulness and studying capacity. Discovered how badly I’m dependant when I missed my morning coffee (and rushed to CSU late) today… By 1pm my head was nodding in lecture. Got my fix as soon as lecture ended.

Had the first IMU Ball 2010 meeting today with didi & the rest of the committee… Things seem great, everyone looks enthusiastic and responsible. :) Let’s hope this is maintained throughout our time together as a team. Convo mag seems alright too, albeit a little relaxed now because of the exam period.

I’m glad all the external events are over, and I can just settle into my corner in the library and study study study. Missed that. :)

…looks like I’m still a nerd at heart. xx

PARTY COME NOVEMBER 26, from PM TO AM!!!

Mr & Mrs Charles, 7/11

Dearest Alice & Chee Wee,

You are both an amazing couple, and I wish you nothing but the utmost joy and blessing in your new life together! I’m so glad you guys invited and included me into your celebration. Don’t think I would have ever seen the sides of you that were revealed in various events leading up to and even in the wedding. :)))

Don’t forget Ps. Chandran’s advice, hahaha!

<3 May your new life become even more beautiful with time, as you grow together in the Lord.

Take it easy

Hi, readers. Today’s blogpost is a rant about what I’ve been thinking about for the past couple of weeks. It’s been a while. It will be depressing, sorry.

I’ve been so stressed about studying with whatever time I get that I’ve been neglecting reading my Bible and hanging out, like really hanging out instead of having my mind and body in different places all the time. Today I semi-hung-out and semi-studied with Minny at Wong Kok, SS2. I’ve missed that.

Not to mention the difficulties I’m facing with trying to break out from thinking too much about my character in the Christmas musical… Minny, you diagnosed me correctly. And like I said, why have you never told me all these years?? Haha. <3

I noticed that I stopped singing in the shower, or even just plain singing a while back.

My throat still hurts and I’m still phlegmy. How to sing this Saturday?

On a good note, though, I counted and I have 51 notes left to read, with a total of 20 days… so an average of 3 notes per day should let me finish in time, with a few days to spare to do PBLs and a partial second round (which I desperately need for endocrine–I can’t remember anything that I studied in the beginning, i.e. adrenals & all the diagnostic tests).

And thennnnn I’m gonna try not to think about how I can’t go for the YA camp that I was really pumped-up about going for but can’t now because of rehearsals throughout the weekend and to add insult to injury the NST peoples can go for their camp in December–at least part of it. :((((((( Boo.

And the many other things that I’ve had to forgo because of musical practices, like the mobile clinic. And Adrian’s birthday. And various other birthday dinners and outings with my uni friends. And the list goes on…

Sometimes I feel like I’m married to this controlling beast of a musical which doesn’t want me to have a life outside of the show. It’s really hard to focus on the bigger plan because of all the smaller things along the way that demand immediate attention.

Yes, this is my current struggle, with all due honesty. I’m neither 100% at practices, studying, nor 100% anywhere else. My mind runs ahead of me to the next activity, the next meeting, the next job on the list, whatever it may be. Everything’s an appointment, scheduled in to my neat little Starbucks planner.

I guess this is almost like a public apology to all my friends whom I’ve had to push aside because of plain busyness with activities. I may do things/go out with you, but never truly spend time to get to know you, or ask about your day, or how your life is going. I’m really sorry…

Really sorry.

Crazy Week–check.

I HATE BEING SICK!

But anyway, crazy week is over… and all that’s left now is a friend’s wedding before there’s absolutely nothing to do and I will become library furniture for a good 3 weeks. Hello November! :))) you mean Christmas is coming soon! I LOVE CHRISTMAS.

Here are the things I did last week:

 

The crowd at acoustic night. :) Thanks, guys!

Tuesday: Acoustic night @ the dance room, IMU. Turnout was awesome–about 50 or 60 peeps showed up to support, play, or watch. Of course, the food was a success. Thank you so much, Faye-sama, MY-sama, and Su Ann for the cooking and chopping!! And definitely, thank you to the photographers, Tay & Esther. :))

 

The group song at the closing, Here in My Home.

Thursday: Flavors of Malaysia @ Atrium, IMU. I wore a kebaya-cheongsam, borrowed from Farah. Got a lot of compliments! Turnout was, again, more than we expected, but due to not-so-great planning and a lot of underexpectations, we ran out of food and encountered a few problems. Apologies to those who bought coupons but didn’t get to use them all… T_T; Thank you for your support, though! Nevertheless, we had fun! 

 

The spooky/kinky group amongst the graves...

Friday: Hallowe’en night @ Chancellor hall, IMU. I went as a Japanese schoolgirl, with a rotan. So did Esther, but without the spanky item. Deco was awesome, food was okay (I didn’t like the spicyness because I had a sore throat, but whatever), and costumes were really spectacular! :) People really dressed up! The last time I saw that was about 2 years ago at Kings’ halloween dance. The dancefloor didn’t quite work out because of the lecture hall sound system, but the BAKING WAS AWESOME. <3 I luff Faye-sama’s pumpkin cake & pumpkin tarts.

 

Me & Alice, the fantastic bride-to-be!

Saturday: Alice’s Hen Night @ Souled Out, Hartamas. Dresscode for the ladies was a white top with jeans, and the bride can wear whatever she wants. No naughty pix disclosed publicly, just one of me and the bride. ;) It was, indeed, a fun night out for the bride, complete with some cute guys, albeit a bit older. I’ll be ji mui  and singing at her wedding this coming Saturday! :)))

Off to IMU now. :) I’ve got to prepare for CSU. Bye, loves, and happy November!!