The Music in my Mind

I did end up going for the One in a Million Season 3 audition yesterday at Berjaya Times Square, but I didn’t get through. Timothy Au (my fellow canticle singer and the Malaysian Josh Groban) DID get in though!!

:DD CONGRATS TIMMY!!! AND ALL THE BEST FOR THE SECOND ROUND OF AUDITIONS!!! Now go make us proud-I’ll DEFINITELY vote for your heart-melting voice. <33 For those of you ladies who have never met Tim or heard him sing, you’re missing out. He’s got a voice like a dream, that might just steal your heart away. Unfortunately for the older ones, he’s only 18… (unless you don’t mind younger men, heh heh)

On another note, though I am slightly disappointed in myself that I got nervous and cracked during my audition.. I’M STILL GONNA KEEP ON SINGING. :DD Because I love to sing, and because God’s given me music to share. Doesn’t matter what the media likes or doesn’t like–as long as I’m good enough for you guys, I’m content.

A BIG thank you goes out to everyone who encouraged and supported me, especially Patrick, for driving me basically EVERYWHERE the whole day, and keeping me company though he didn’t sleep the night before, Jon Ng and his friend Kelvin, for coming all the way to support me in person and through multiple morale-boosting text messages then later driving me to Bangsar for my practice, Sarah for being my correspondant, encourager and fellow auditionee when I had to leave BTS for The Canticle Singers’ practice, and God, for the spirit, strength and voice that He’s given me. :)

Also, GANBATTE to my two loves, Dea-chan and Rae-chan, who are both studying hard for their exams. All the best, you two, and keep it up! Can’t wait to celebrate with you guys after your exams. I miss you two a lot. T_T We need more camwhoring sessions.

QUESTION: I need opinions on who to cosplay for the upcoming Comics Fiesta event. And if anyone wants to join me, it’ll be on the 20th – 21st of December! I’m thinking of Hagumi from Honey and Clover, Reira from NANA, the Alice monster from Ragnarok Online, or Rabi~en~Rose from Digi Charat. My only problem will be wigs… ugh.

Knowing God’s Will

That was, in a sense, what I got out of last night’s cell group discussion. Pastor Chew our senior pastor, dropped by to visit our cell, so it was a big, informal Q&A session about anything under the sun that we wanted to ask him. I really admire Pastor because he’s such a humble man, and very down-to-earth about everything. He’s totally honest, and even when answering our questions, there was this sense of him answering out of his humble understanding and opinion, not pretending to know everything that God is. He has such a gentle spirit, and everytime I listen to him, I can’t help but feel how much he loves us, his flock, and wants to share God’s heart with us… It’s so inspiring!

Yesterday was a lovely day. I only woke up around 1pm (hello, holidays…), played RO for a bit, watched Densha Otoko (a Japanese romance flick; a cute love story about a nerd finding true love, hahaha), then got ready for cell group. Drove Patrick & Jon there, we had the awe-inspiring Q&A session, celebrated Jon’s birthday again, then came home. I get to go dancing again, later today! :)) Heading down to Euphoria once again, to get my ears tortured by the beats and legs shaken by the thumping dancefloor.

But yes, back to God’s will. The BIGGEST question, I feel, when it comes to this topic, is often “How do I know what is God’s will for my life?” This could come into one’s life from many, many different angles. What’s God’s will for my relationship? My career? My friends? My activities? What I gathered was that it’s got a lot to do with asking God through prayer, then being willing to wait it out for an answer. And what’s the answer? The peace of God.

Pastor summed it up with: (a) What we want may not be what God’s will is for us, so be OPEN, and inquire of God through prayer, (b) The Holy Spirit who lives in us has the ability to tell us if our choice is within God’s will or not, for those choices that require some “common sense”; after all, God has sent the Holy Spirit to guide us as our conscience, and (c) The peace of God will come to you if you are treading the right path. 2 Corinthians 2:12 – Paul speaks of how he saw an open door to preach in a certain city, but because he didn’t feel the peace of God, he left that opportunity to preach and went elsewhere.

The peace of God is more important than an open door.

So what if God is silent? You listen, but you don’t hear anything? Then, dear friends, wait. Sit tight and keep asking, keep seeking. While you’re doing that, search yourself, because if we consider sin in our heart, God does not answer our prayers! Pastor used a rather amusing illustration for this: “You don’t jump out of a moving train that is in a dark tunnel.” You might be groping in the dark, unable to see an answer, but we shouldn’t jump ahead and rush a decision. Waiting is best, though by out human nature we tend to grow impatient and jump the gun anyway. :P Guilty as charged!

The night ended with Pastor leaving us with Micah 6:8 – What God requires of us is simply to act justly, love mercy, and walk humbly with God. Amen. :) It was truly an uplifting, and WONDERFUL session. I learnt a lot–this bit about God’s will is just a little chunk of the evening, but I felt I needed to share it.

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Today is also JO ANN PHANG a.k.a. HAMMY’S 19TH BIRTHDAY!!!! Happy birthday, Jo luv! I typed out all my birthday greeting DEUX: once in a text message, and the other on your facebook wall, so I’m too lazy to write it all over again. But you know that I love you, and am always praying for the best for you–that God may give you your heart’s desires with them being WITHIN HIS WILL! Hahaha. God bless, luv, and have a blast! This is, after all, your last teenage year. ;)

The Letter Meme (meme post #7, I think)

Before I do the meme, I just wanted to ramble about my thoughts (that you all so love to listen to, ha ha). :)))) I really am dreaming of heading up to Cameron Highlands with a stack of good books, settle down in the apartment we have there, and read for the rest of the holidays. HOWEVER, knowing my erratic attention span, I will soon be longing for the hustle and bustle of PJ & KL, and the lure of dancing. Maybe, the brief moments of silence, solitude and peace are what city people secretly long for, but cannot get used to… A “slow” amidst the rushing pace of life around us.

I also wonder why I’m so harsh in a certain aspect of my life, and why I can’t be any softer, or perhaps, weaker and just give in. :/ It’s difficult when you think you’ve got to be strong, move on, and not allow yourself to make the same mistakes. I just can’t. We have a problem here.

Also, celebrated Jonathan Lee’s birthday today (25th November, yes I’m bloggin’ after midnight) ! :) Puppy turned 19. Lilian, Elvyna, Rachel, Joey, Benedict, Wei Phin & I had a surprise birthday gathering for him at Chili’s 1 Utama. There was a certain waitress who wasn’t very pleasant, but puppy seemed to have enjoyed himself, and nothing could beat the grin on his face when the cake arrived. :))) Gave him the Bible that Jo & I bought for him. Glad you guys could make it for the celebration! Once again, HAPPY BIRTHDAY PUPPY!!! JO & I LOVE YOU LOTS!!!!! :DDDD MAAAAAAAAAAK~

Now, onto the meme. Tagged by Cecilia! Click to see, it’s long. Kinda fun. I tag Rae, Dea, Faye, Dustin, and Brian.

Men (and women) Who Don’t Know What They Want

…shouldn’t exist in the first place.

And why? Because you don’t go looking for relationships and then measure how great they are by “how much” you get out of it. Or “what you want” out of it. And wonder what it is you’re looking for if you happen to hit a lot of bumps along the way. A relationship ISN’T a business transaction that you can expect self-profit out of. It’s a lot of giving without expecting anything back in return. Granted, you should know why you’re entering into a relationship (be it for money, for friendship, for romance, for marriage, for fun…) and get that straight from the very start. And remain honest if that reason changes. But you don’t necessarily need to know what you want, because that’s unfair to whoever you’re entering into a relationship with. What if him or her doesn’t live up to your what I want criteria, hmm? But you still “love” the person. Ok, I’m ranting. BUT:

A relationship is something two people need to work at–not one person. A relationship is such exactly because you’re supposed to grow together in it, not put it on hold when you get confused about why it’s not smooth sailing. You talk. You cry. You scream. You laugh. You figure things out. Together. It’s not as simple as “I love you baby so it’s alright”. Your actions have to match up to your words. Heck, if you said you loved your wife but slept with another woman, I wouldn’t think you loved your wife at all! That’s NOT love. Love is much, much more than that.

A relationship is love AND more. It’s life, with all its ups and downs, SHARED. Values. Perspectives. Likes. Dislikes. Personalities. Administration. Economics. History. 

It’s saddening that many guys and girls nowadays don’t understand what a relationship is anymore. Everything’s been commercialized and prettified by movies, dramas, plays, the mass media, fluffy romance novels, teen novels… And the worse part is that thousands–no, MILLIONS–of people buy into the madness day after day.

i’m tired of seeing people around me getting hurt for the wrong reasons. Because of another’s ignorance. Because of their own ignorance. Excuse my “Bible talk” if you please, but it’s part of who I am, and I live unapologetically by the Word of my God. Love, I believe, is best explained by His Holy word. What was it again… Love if faithful, love is kind, love does not bear grudges? In the book of Corinthians, can’t remember where or what. How can we understand love if we don’t understand how God loves us in the first place?

He is the creator of all things, and He created love. Using our human understanding to work things out isn’t going to help anything–it’ll just frustrate. I’m too tired to continue this centuries-old discussion, but what I really want to say is:

You can only truly love another when you love God first.

REALLY, OK! :( I’M NOT KIDDING. Try it for yourself. You’ll be amazed.

It Don’t Mean a Thing…

…if it ain’t got that swing.

OMG. OMG. OMG. OMGG!!!!!!

AM I DREAMING, OR WHAT??!!??

SWING DANCING has lindy-hopped its way onto the tropical shores of my homeland, Malaysia, in the form of a bunch of enthusiasts that have started this website, KL Swing!

Which means only one thing: I GET TO SWING DANCE AGAIN!!!!!!!!!!!!

Oh. My. GAWWWWWWWD.

OH. MY. AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHH!!!!!!!

RIGHT NOW, WORDS CANNOT EXPRESS THE SHEER ELATION THAT I FEEL!!!!

Swing dancing is here. Swing dancing is here. It’s finally here. Oh. Wow. OH YES!!!!! YES YES YES YESYESYESYESYES!!!!!!

Months ago, when I came home from Canada, I thought I’d have to hang up my dancing shoes for life, letting the moss and mold of the fresh tropical humidity cover them up forever (until I leave for more icy shores). I’d scoured the internet for “swing dancing in KL or PJ” to no avail. I’d called up dance studios, asking if they taught Swing, or knew any places (or people!!) that did Swing. My search yielded nothing but more sadness, and I decided to put those dreams on hold.

But now, everything’s changed–A studio in Bangsar holds Swing dance classes every Tuesday, beginning 25th November. SIGN ME UP, BABY!!! I’m dreaming of moving my feet once again in time to those driving beats; I can already hear those careless, carefree, jazzy beats, infused with the passion and soul of the musicians exposing their very beings, and the push and pull of the energized, raucous dancefloor, filled with swinging couples, throwing themselves into that MAGIC which we call Swing Dance.

Ohhhhh yeaaaaahhhh.

Only problem now is that I need a lead (a guy partner) who is willing… (or you could be a girl who is willing to lead)

Hmm. Any takers? (you’ll get a 30% discount on class fees, honest! The studio offers that as an incentive for lead partners to step forward)

:))) Please say yes.

If you don’t know what Swing Dancing is, go YouTube “Swing Kids” or rather, ask me to lend you the movie for the time of your life. :)))))))

*bat bat*

Mummy needed to use up her Robinson’s cash vouchers, so I got me a new toy:

Apparently, it’s one of the best–made specially for Asian eyes. I’ll put it to the test soon!

Mummy also had Jusco cash vouchers, so we got soba!! <3 OH SOBA, HOW I LOVE THEE.

I need to sing “Taylor, the Latte Boy” again, for a Christmas performance I’ll be doing with The Canticle Singers in December… So I have to brush up on it. My voice is weaker now, after the weeks of disuse. :/ And truth be told, the song grates on me now… But a girl’s gotta do what a girl’s gotta do!

Doing nothing makes me tired. Going to have to inject more life into my days–and give my room a major spring cleaning!

I miss all my IMU friends, now that we’re all on holidays and don’t get to see each other every day. :( It’s nice to be able to spend time with my room again instead of treating it like a hotel, but I do miss the random fun and out-of-the-blue encounters and little happenings that spawn from a day at IMU. Hope you guys are all having a wonderful time with your families and friends! Can’t wait to re-enter IMU as a 2nd-year with you guys.

Thank you, Lord. THANK YOU!!

No more words than this can express my gratitude and AMAZING wonder I have for the miracles YOU can work, O Lord. When I opened that envelope today, I couldn’t contain the overflow of joy that I felt ebb out of my very being. The flimsy sheet of paper clutched in one hand, I fled the Academic Affairs Department in a state of euphoria, only able to mouth unintelligible sounds of happiness before collapsing into a sobbing heap into poor Kor Woi’s arms. Lilian and Joanne came around the corner shortly, to see what the commotion was about. :)

Laughing and crying, both at the same time. Floods of tears, yet I was unable to stop smiling.

Wiping my face dry after washing away the streaks of tears, I said a quick prayer of thanks, lifting my eyes to the bare, white ceiling.

I DID IT!! I REALLY DID IT! It was right there, printed on the results slip.

It’s a miracle. A freakin’ miracle. And truly, truly a case of something I couldn’t have done on my own. The huge, scary exam that seniors had shuddered and whispered about, apparently the toughest exam we’d ever face in IMU… Over and done with, and I REALLY DID PWN IT! Seriously. SERIOUSLY!!!!!

My hands were shaking when they attempted to tear open the envelope, and they shook even more after I saw what was printed within. I couldn’t hold anything; Joanne and Lilian can testify to this. I dropped my cellphone, dropped my results slip, almost dropped my bag…

I’ll be a 2nd year student soon. :)

I had to help out with campus friends’ tutorials for the gastrointestinal tract, and then go for the orientation meeting, so I texted my results to my parents, and some close friends who asked to be notified when I got my results… Daddy called, very excited. Mummy sent back a text praising God. :))

Went for a celebratory late lunch with some of my batchmates at Sushi Zanmai, Sunway Pyramid.

When I got home, I called Kung-kung and Poh-poh to tell them what I’d scored–Kung-kung was so excited that he forgot to end the call on his new cellphone, and immediately started telling Poh-poh, “Ah-Li Yen hao see loh dou A ah!” (Li Yen got an A for her exam!) I also told Ma-ma what I scored, and this wide smile appeared on her face as she was eating her dinner, while saying “Doh jie jue Yeh-sou ah!!” (Praise Jesus!)

Mummy, Daddy, and my brother took me out to celebrate my results later, at Hilton PJ’s Japanese restaurant, Genji. I must say the sashimi there is the most amazing that I’ve EVER had in my life. I understand now why there’s such a price difference between commercial Japanese food outlets and hotel Japanese restaurants–I never knew sashimi could taste so heavenly… The salmon (sake) that I had was the juiciest, tenderest, and fattest that I’ve ever tasted. The tuna (maguro) was just as juicy, tender, and flavorful. The squid (ika), sprinkled with mini chrysanthemum petals and shrimp roe (ebikko), was wonderfully firm, rich, and smooth, balanced by the little pearls of salty ebikko and bittersweet petals. I took my time with that platter; I can still taste it in my mind.

I’m at home now, perched on a beanbag, in front of my laptop, listening to the raindrops trickle off into a drizzle. As I think of the day, I can’t help but let a lazy smile creep across my face, realizing that at the end of it all, You were there all along, Lord.

You were there, all those nights that I spent crouched in front of my books.

You comforted me, when I crashed and felt I couldn’t go on any longer.

You gave me strength to keep on surrendering, even when everyone around me kept saying how difficult it was.

You held my hand, guiding my pen and mind as I scribbled furiously in the exam hall.

You saw my hands shake in trepidation as I opened that envelope.

And You saw that joy light up my face when I saw what the ordeal had finally yielded.

Lord, I haven’t been good at surrendering all the way, and letting you take over. You showed me, hinted to me, what was in store, but I chose not to believe it, not wanting to be disappointed. I set my standards low, my goals even lower. Please forgive me for my lack of trust, and instead, help me to surrender more to You! If I don’t let You in, how then can You work in my life? Thank You so much for giving me the ability to get these results, and help me to bless others with what You’ve given me.

I will strive to hold true to what you have called me to do, for:

“Let [me] fix [my] eyes on Jesus, the author and perfecter of [my] faith, who for the joy set before him endured the cross, scorning its shame, and sat down at the right hand of the throne of God.”

- Hebrews 12:2

Amen. :)))) AMEN!!!!!!

p/s – Congratulations to my fellow batchmates who also passed the EOS! As for those who were unable to–there’s the resit, and we (myself included), like Kor Woi said, will definitely step up to help you guys! Memory tricks, short notes, everything. Just ask!! MEDT BANG BANG BANG!

Quattro @ Avenue K

Got to go on Tuesday night, 11th of Nov. But because I’m a lazy blogger, I only updated now! Hahaha. :) What an night it was! Before heading there, Tuck Lam, Minny & I went to Sushi Tomo in SS2 to grab a little bite. She & I had some maki, and he had chicken teppanyaki. The portions were small and the prices were expensive. :( We thought we’d try it, since that restaurant had always been around, and we’d never gone there… I think that would be the first AND last time we’ll step foot into that restaurant. I don’t recommend it at all, even for something light.

After dropping Minny at home, we then headed down to IMU to meet Kyle and Premi… Whereupon we discovered that Emmy had lost her wallet :(( and couldn’t come with us. She lost everything, apparently it got pickpocketed!! Sadly, the likelihood of her being able to get it back is close to zero, even though most of us would want to be optimistic about it. Unless a miracle occurs…

We reached Quattro around 10.30pm, then waited for a while for Cecilia and her friends to arrive from dinner in KLCC. Zaeem and JP came later, as did Amar, Usamah, and a whole bunch of other Malay dudes from IMU.

The place was definitely smaller than I thought it would be, but I guess being a club in KL–you dont have much space for however much rent you pay. The Spring Lounge and the Summer Restaurant are out front, so they’re the first things you see! We didn’t really go into the restaurant, but looked from the outside. It had a yellowy decor and looked warm. The lounge had many sakura motifs and pink lighting to match the theme.

To get to the Autumn Club, you have to walk through a Raining Pathway! Haha, I didn’t think it would really rain at first when I saw it, but they had umbrellas at both ends of the pathway. It rains every hour in the pathway, so like jakuns we set alarms on our cellphones so we could catch the rain, LOL. Cecilia and my umbrella had a HOLE in it but we didn’t notice until after, so we got soaked!! Arrrrgghhh. The back of my dress and my hair was so wet–I got so cold for a while, but warmed up when I dried off.

If you go upstairs (take the stairs or the escalator outside the club), you will arrive at the Winter Bar, where we discovered a Winter Garden, of a concept similar to the Raining Pathway. It snows in the Garden every half-hour, apparently… not every hour like the sign says. The “snow”, as we discovered, was really just cold, OILY foam!!! After getting it in our hair and all over our hands, we had to go clean up, lol.

The music there was pretty good–Rn’B and hip hop, and it wasn’t too smoky; I could still breathe. I didn’t come home smelling too strongly of smoke, so that’s always a good thing! The interior decor of all four sections of the club was very simple, and they adhered to the season themes mainly by use of colored lights. Everything seemed to carry a very Japanese-y overtone, though. :) Noh mask for the Autumn Club symbol, anyone?

I think I’d go there again–but it’s the people that made it fun. :) Our own dancefloor, haha! But if I were to compare Euphoria to Quattro… I don’t knowwww! I still love Euphoria’s dancefloor. :)) Dancing over drinking, baby!

Photos are up and loaded, on my facebook! It takes SO LONG to upload and post photos on this wordpress blog (because it’s uber laggy), so from now on, posts on big outings will carry links to the facebook album-unless something’s so priceless I HAVE to upload it here. <3

You can see shots from my camera here, and more shots from Cecilia’s camera here and here. Have a gander, if you please. ;)

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Results are coming out tomorrow!! I can’t wait–will finally have that thought out of my head.

The “I’m still alive” Update

Just to say I’m not dead and gone–just relishing the newfound freedom. I’ve been a bad blogger, lol. ;3 Hope you guys are enjoying your semester break too! 2 months of nothing, baby.

A quick rundown of my week after EOS2 ended on November 4th, last Tuesday:

Tuesday: Teapot Cafe for an after-EOS teatime (I had 4 scones in one go!!) & sleeeept for 12+ hours.

Wednesday: Watched Hana Yori Dango 3 the movie (“Boys over Flowers” season finale) with cousin & went to cell group at night

Thursday: MEDT 1/09 Orientation committee meeting, Timothy’s birthday karaoke at Red Box Sunway Pyramid, & Euphoria with Minny & David!

Friday: Quantum of Solace with Jon & Wei Phin, Jo Ann’s pre-birthday dinner @ Chili’s

Saturday: MUET test (I’m done with MUET, finally. It was a crap test–very badly set, in my opinion), more Teapot Cafe goodness with Jo Ann, and Wei Phin’s after-EOS BBQ

Sunday: Church, sent Jo off to the airport (KL Sentral and she took the train), napped, had rehearsal with The Canticle Singers (yes, I’ll be doing Christmas performances with them! Stay tuned for the dates, times, and venues~)

Monday: Met my mentor (Dr Mangala – a very sweet lady from India; she teaches anatomy), hung out with Minny & David, went for FUTSAL with my cell group! :)) I’ve missed futsal a lottttt.

I’m actually blogging after midnight on Monday, so it’s not *really* Tuesday the 11th yet, in my mind. More stuff to do tomorrow! The cleaning lady is coming, so I have to quickly save my room from the signs of EOS-related neglect so she can sweep and mop my floor… Right now, there are copious amounts of clothes and papers and files EVERYWHERE. *shudders*

Then, I’m watching a movie with Jae Ric, Joanne, and Kelvin… It’s some Japanese movie called 10 Promises I made to my Dog. I saw the preview before, and it looked kinda cute. We’ll see how it turns out. Later, I’ll be going to Quattro with Cecilia, Kyle, Emmy, and her friends at night. It’s that new “four seasons”-themed club/restaurant/lounge/bar thing at Avenue K, the building attached to the KLCC LRT station. I used to stop there and walk to work for 6 months last year, so I know the place. I’m not surprised a club opened up there–it’s got a lot of space, and is glitzy like that. Will post a review of the place later. :) Excited!

Okay. I think that’s it. Photos from Euphoria with Minny and David can be found on my Facebook. Clicky clicky!

It’s over.

Dear EOS2,

You and I have had this strange relationship for slightly over two weeks now, and now I think it’s time for us to get it out in the open.

Before I met you, I heard countless stories about you. About how challenging you were, how fast you were, how confusing you were… Needless to say, I was both intrigued and distressed at the thought of meeting you. You made me nervous–I had never heard of anyone like you in my whole life! Some people recalled you with an odd fondness. Some couldn’t remember you at all. Some, at the very mention of your name, pulled a face filled with the sour memories they never wanted to revisit.

I spent those two weeks prior to our meeting getting ready, just for you.

It might sound a little obsessive, but I read, studied and remembered everything I could find out about you, so I wouldn’t fail to come up with the right answers to your questions. I felt I needed to impress you. I forced myself to love you, so I wouldn’t be repulsed by you when we met. I kept away from all my friends and shut myself in. Day and night, my thoughts were filled with only you. See those dark rings under my eyes? All the sleep I lost–for you.

The date finally came.

9 a.m., and the sun was shining. I arrived at our meeting place, only having stolen four miserable hours of caffeine-riddled sleep the night before. At first glance, I was intimidated. You were cold, clinical, and calculating. Fragments of hearsay about you fluttered across my panicking mind, but I kept myself focused, and we talked. Soon, you warmed up to me. Flirted. Set me at ease. It wasn’t so bad after all, and I left you with a smile. We’d meet again, after lunch, because you were busy. I was eager and excited.

After lunch, you showed me some of your legendary unforgiving streak, cruelly asking me questions I did not know the answers to. And for the ones that I did know, you didn’t acknowledge. Whatever happened to the warmth I had seen earlier? That light playfulness? Was it all an illusion? What did you really want from me? Confusion filled my mind, and I left you, heart heavy and mind troubled.

That night wasn’t any easier. I didn’t know what to expect any more. Flipping through the notes and anecdotes I had acquired and made about you, I looked at everything I could–haphazardly–before we were to meet again the next morning. I didn’t feel ready, or sure of myself, anymore. I fell into another brief, dreamless sleep before being rudely awakened by the strains of DJ MAKAI thumping from my alarm.

Our last meeting helped me decide. The sleep must have refreshed me, for when I saw you, I was no longer afraid. If I couldn’t answer your questions, what did it matter? I knew what I knew, and I was secure in that knowledge that I had. Instead, you were haphazard, jumping all over the place like a buzzer on a game show. You were confused, speaking quickly, and telling me all sorts of things. Yet I could remain calm, and I knew what to do, and how to do it.

Dear EOS, I’m writing to tell you that we’re through. You and your mind games have no more hold over me. All the anticipation, the confusion, the emotional turmoil I went through–I don’t need any of it. You might have appeared loveable, but I see the beast that you are, and I ain’t having any of it. Those two weeks and these three meeting were enough. I thought I could love you, but you erased any chance of that happening.

I’ve got my life back.

So baby, we’re through.

Love (not really), Jade xx

p/s – Maybe I’ll like your brother, EOS3, better than you.

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EOS IS FREAKIN’ OVER!

PARTY TIME!

I want to thank God for pulling me through this huge exam, my parents for being so loving though I was a terrible grouch, my friends for putting up with my antisocial hermiting, and my brain, for not failing on me at any time.

On PWNing EOS2

Because I am terribly bored of studying, and tomorrow is the first day of my EOS2 (1st-year finals, for those who don’t know), I thought I’d document my last moments of cramming (and being fat), in picture form.

Armed with encouragement. Thanks Joanne! xx

Surprise cupcakes mummy bought for me to keep those glucose levels high!

Pills, because I also need to PWN the flu that has descended upon me. RAWR

Lunch (AND dinner) because I'm too antisocial to go look for food.

For the sake of being healthy, water and fruit, too.

My devotion, to help me remember the One who's bigger than it ALLLLL. <3

BRING IT ON, suckas. xx

Won’t see me like that for a LOOOOONG while after this. Cherish the image.

Lastly, to all my fellow batchmates and friends, MEDT BANG BANG BANG! Let’s give our all for the EOS! We’ve studied our brains and hearts out, and put our best effort in. We’ve had fun, procrastinated, stressed, encouraged… And now’s the time to put that all to good use. All the best, and I am definitely looking forward to re-enter IMU as a 2nd year medical student with everyone! xx

Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.

Philippians 4:6-7

God bless. <3 See you guys tomorrow morning.