Latte Panic.
June 2, 2008
It’s happening this Thursday. It’s finally here. I don’t know if I’m happy or sad, but I’m definitely panicking. Dear God, I really need Your help here. I’m exhausted. I’m worn out. I’m pressed for time on all sides. I cannot rely on my own strength. AUUUGGGHH. I have a ton of things to get done which I cannot postpone until after my summative (exam).
But amidst all this inner turmoil and frustration, something happened today to really strengthen my belief in the “angels” God has surrounded us with. Today’s angel was a certain guitarist from SIB~~~ :) If you read this, you don’t need to know how you helped, but you did. You made me smile again when I was down, and reminded me to be on guard against the Accuser, and instead, focus on the blessings in my life. People can do/say what they want, but I will remain STEADFAST in You, Lord.
Ashamedly, I lost control of myself whilst wallowing in self-pity and being grumpy about having no space to myself. HECK, do you think the Myanmar refugees have private space alone? Or even the Sichuan earthquake victims & families affected, who just exist in a struggle to get back to normal life.
I should find my rest in God alone, not in new-age meditational “beats” and the sound of trickling water.
My peace is found in Christ alone, and my “alone” time should become “Jesus time.” :)
And now that I’m sufficiently calm, I’m going to apologize to someone.
