There comes a time when you look back at your old photos, your old diary, your old self even, and think–hey, I don’t know that person anymore.
You don’t think you look like that anymore–no more skirts-over-pants or jeans imported ideas from Japan.
Talk like that anymore–substantial, non-brain-drain conversations are the order now.
Think like that anymore–just don’t see how those things used to matter so much.
Act like that anymore–it’s tiring to be like that all the time.
There’re parts you can identify with, but not the whole. You still have those teardrop moles by your eyes, but those eyebags seem to be getting larger and darker. Things that have stayed the same, like your underwear collection, and things that have dramatically changed, like your circle of friends.
But that’s when you know you’ve moved on–been sifted through–into a different recipe, a different mix. Everything tastes different, mellower even. The essence of who you are has matured, being moved closer to the finished products hall of fame, that hangs up in the sky in some fantastic, mastercraft bakers’ land (I’d like to be tiramisu, please). I hope God has a sweet tooth (and a sense of humor). :)
Then you wonder…
If I meet someone from that time in my life, how different would it be?
Tricky question. Never know till it comes, and no use worrying. :) Life’s no RPG with a cheatbook telling you all the possible endings and what to do to get there.
Welcome to February, readers. :) It’s not a “new” year any longer.
See the news report here.
I seriously lol’ed, and then thanked my lucky stars I don’t drive in Britain… They’d probably fine me for eating, applying mascara, applying lipgloss, doing full makeup, changing clothes, reading books, texting, answering calls, camwhoring… all while I was driving.
:) The gift of multitasking is one of the joys of being a woman.
Yeahhh.
There are four things that I blame this dream on:
1) Watching a rebellz photoshoot by Joe Low yesterday
2) Talking to Mike about all things Canada
3) Googling Liu Wen, the first Chinese VS Angel
4) My morning wake-up song (I Watch You by Lee Cabrera ft. MIM)
SO.
Last night I had the most bizarre dream (that somewhat made sense when I thought deeply about all the connections).
You know how dreams are–you never remember how exactly they started or how you got to be where you are in the dream where memory begins.
I was in this huge hall that was a cross between Chee Wee & Alice’s wedding solemnization hall and the Sunway Convention center hall where Comifest was held two years ago. There was some familiar house music thumping in the hall (probably something off of my MOS playlist). Some black DJ guy.
Who was I? A 4′ 11″ model, 100000x skinnier than my present size, wearing some funky club-inspired togs that were red, black, silk, and not very conservative. Oh, let’s not forget the killer platforms and hooker boots. There were a few of us, in these huge, suspended glass boxes with props. There were like.. a million photographers on various ladders, balconies, etc. with their flashing lights aimed at us. We kept posing, in time to the heavy beats the DJ was pumping out.
Eventually it was time for us to take a break, so I got out and instantly fell into the crowd, where I regained balance after being moshed for a while. Out of nowhere, I spotted Ben Reed, my high school bestie, walking around with Deadmau5. I screamed at him and jumped into his arms, totally clinging on and glomping him as he yelled back at me.
“OMG BEN WHAT ARE YOU DOING HERE!??”
“JADEY!! I MISS YOU SO MUCH YOU CRAZY ASIAN!!”
Then Paul Chavady appears, with full beard in tow.
“HEYYYY!!!”
I swing into his arms, jumping off of Ben. We totally scream each others’ names like girls.. in that annoying, drawn-out style until… Mike appears. We shut up and I just stare at him, before he waves, smiles and goes off with some guy who looks like Basshunter.
I jump out of Paul’s arms to follow Mike, weaving in and out of the crowd until I end up outside the hall. The music switches to a mashup of Akon’s Sexy Bitch and Kid Cudi’s Day N’ Night (which, IMHO, would be a really hot mashup). I dance along to the beat and enter this small room with red, shiny, metallic walls and a door like the one in Alice in Wonderland.
There’s a photographer inside, who looks vaguely familiar. Two people in addition to him: Fedde Le Grand (of all people…) and this anorexic-type model with massive fantasy makeup. She’s posing around him with these red lava lamps and glitter glowsticks, but none of them look happy about it. Suddenly, she throws all the props down and climbs up the skylight (which mysteriously appeared), cursing at them.
Fedde turns around and sees me, saying “You try, she’s hopeless.” It’s a promotional shot for his upcoming club tour. SO the posing begins and it gets kinda kinky. “Let me think about it” is playing in the background.
In short, it was successful, and when it was over I climbed out the same skylight, into a room with Armin van Buuren. He starts speaking to me in Dutch with this wide smile on his face, but I’m shaking my head like I don’t understand a thing. He asks me if I’ve heard a certain song, and I’m just confused and can’t answer him.
Lee Cabrera’s “I watch you” starts playing really loudly, and after a while I realize it’s my alarm.
What a way to wake up to my lumpy, nerdy self.
<3
NB: For those who may not know, what made sense was Paul & Ben being at the techno/house party because they like that kind of music. And the clothes I imagined on the models looked like what Liu Wen wore for the VS show. One of the models looked like a model from the Joe Low shoot.
True brain diarrhoea.
Set me free, leave me be
I don’t want to fall another moment into your gravity
Here I am, and I stand so tall
Just the way I’m supposed to be
But you’re on to me, and all over me…
Filed under: Excitement, Pictures | Tags: birthdays, clubbing, imu life, outings
Yawshing’s 21st is actually on the 19th of Jan, but he decided to celebrate it early since next week was going to be GP postings back in Penang for him.
He cleaned up well! :) The nine of us (including Mira’s boyfriend) had a lovely dinner at Monte’s @Bangsar Shopping Center. Monte’s is a restaurant & wine bar, which I think has food that is pretty good value for money. It’s not exorbitant, but prices are to be expected for a place like that. Portions were okay. Wasn’t feeling too hungry, so I just had the carrot & pumpkin soup along with the chicken & mushroom spaghetti off of the kids’ menu. Both were pretty good–the soup was sweet and creamy, and the spag was just right as well as just the right amount. Didn’t get jelak. :)
Yes, we medics know how to have fun. ;) Apparently it’s a Tamil (or Hindu? sorry, not very good at this stuff) tradition to feed the family cake after you blow the candles and cut it… And feed he did, lol. I left early to catch the late dregs of cell, so not quite sure what happened after that. However, I did meet up with them later at The Opera, a new club at Sunway that we decided to check out.
Filed under: Excitement, Pictures | Tags: church, dedications, God stuff, outings, roadtrips
I’ve been like, the laziest blogger on earth, seriously. It’s been two weeks into the new year, and it’s only my second post. There’s a million things I need to update and write about, but first, let’s talk about the awesome roadtrip that just happened this past weekend. :) And yes, hello, hello! Apparently this lil’ place has been getting 100+ hits a day, which is a DRAMATIC increase since last year’s 50-60 a day. This is a strange phenomenon, but one that is welcomed. Where did you all come from?
Long post, with many pictors. So, click to view the extended version a lil’ further down. :) Didn’t wanna stretch the page.
Right.
Despite the fact that the Season of the Year! the musical (we refer to it as SOTY from here onwards) ended more than two weeks ago, we, the gung-ho cast and crew, are still hanging out. 17 of us piled into my apartment in Tanah Rata, Cameron Highlands from the 8th of Jan til the 10th of Jan and partied in the cool, mountain air. The drive up was epic–Pearl, Kenny & hamsap (Daryll) were in my car, and we grooved to some pretty hot tracks on the way there.
The early team, which departed PJ Friday afternoon consisted of yours truly, Pearl, Kenny, Hamsap, Voon Wai, Isaiah, Sue, Mel Tee, Alex, and Marcus. Yeah, we parked by the side of the road and camwhored at the welcome sign. Ah, the joys of self-timer. After unloading at the apartment, we went up to Brinchang for some hearty steamboat, which cost only RM12 per person. For dessert, we raided the Brinchang night market for strawberries dipped in dark chocolate fondue. <3 yum yum yum! The tangy strawberries were perfectly balanced out by the melty, rich dark chocolate…
Happy New 2010 to all my readers!
:) In the meantime, before I actually make a post of substance, you may enjoy the new banner.
God bless, and much love!
Guess I picked a good time to finally start watching the dramas I’ve collected over the past few months, one of which is Nodame Cantabile (live-action). Based on googled research, it looks like it’ll culminate in a happy Christmas ending. :)
Another good reason is that the “season two” of this series is coming out as a two-movie project, one of which was released yesterday, on the 19th of December. Now I just have to wait for it to be translated and subbed! :D
I normally hate waiting for sequels and such, mainly because I end up forgetting about them while waiting. Then, when I finally remember, it usually a few months to a year after they were released… So this is perfect!
So much better than that Boke Dake no Madonna that I attempted to watch a few months ago… This may not beat Mei-chan no Shitsuji in my heart (AAAAAAHHHH RIHITO-SAMAAAA), but it’s pretty good. :) Chiaki Shinichi is the lead male character, and his type-A personality + manly good looks caught my attention immediately! To top it off, he plays the piano + violin + conducts + is extremely musically talented and has such a serious, yet dorky-sweet personality when caught off-guard. He’s got that oji-sama appeal and arrogance, which will, obviously, be deflated by the love interest. His actor is Tamaki Hiroshi.
Nodame did not endear herself to me immediately, as she is both unhygenic and irresponsible… I don’t like people who stink. She also takes advantage of Chiaki-sama’s hospitality WAY too much. >_< I’m getting used to her though, more so than that irritating lead female in Boku Dake no Madonna, whose name I have easily forgotten. Nodame is played by Ueno Juri, who I must say did a remarkable job at being disgustingly adorable yet annoying. :)
I’m not fully supporting the Chiaki x Nodame pairing yet, but I guess the remainder of the episodes will change my mind. With a great deal of self-control, I’ve only watched episodes 1 – 4 so far. There are 11 + 2sp total. 5 days to Christmas (and my musical) to finish this series! :))
This series makes me wish I took my piano more seriously… =/ Kind of depressing how I’ve hit Grade 7 but can’t even play simple chords well, let alone a full-fledged classical piece. Ah well.
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In real life, I managed to spring-clean my wardobe today. Filtered out three boxes of stuff I probably wouldn’t wear anymore. All my clothes now fit into my closet, yay! It’s kind of weird having so much floor space all of a sudden, but it’s a nice change from having to side-step dresses, cardigans and hangers just to reach the air-con switch.
Next cleaning project: Dressing table + accessories; at present, I can’t even close the drawers OR see the table-top.
Filed under: Excitement | Tags: boys, church, events, imu life, performances, shows, thoughts
I don’t actually get to use any glitter for my musical because of the character I have to play, but there’s a great deal of hairspray involved.
Anyway!
Today was the promotional show for the musical. We performed my scene for my church’s community event, Christmas at the Park @Central park, Phileo Damansara Business Centre. :) Energy like never before, people! Prayed like mad before the scene, but once we stepped into the lights and smoke, all nervousness vanished–at least for me. It was a great start, everyone. Now we need to sustain the energy for the last leg of rehearsals + the 5 shows that begin on Christmas day! Can’t wait for show days.
On a good note, I also finished my BS selectives report yesterday. :) 3 days early! All that’s left is prep for our group presentation, then MY HOLIDAYS OFFICIALLY BEGIN! WOO-HOO! Short promo: the humanities selectives class is showcasing a musical version of Oedipus tomorrow! My voice makes a cameo in three of their short songs. Haha. Go and support them! I wanted to go, but am tied up with rehearsals…
The line “I knew that I’d get like this again, that’s why I try to keep at bay” from Immi’s song Half Life is running through my head now. I’ve been indulging myself in way too many visions of fantasy romances a la “Wicked” the musical. That song, As Long As You’re Mine? Been on repeat in my car stereo for way too long. It makes my imagination really run wild, wayyy to wild into the future about things that could possibly make me happy. Haha. Probably even better than the real thing itself…
Dear God, is it time?
I ask, and I’ll continue to surrender and wait… but not without the customary daydreaming beforehand. :)
Comeee what mayyyyy ~♪
Filed under: Excitement | Tags: christmas, christmas updates, church, events, performances, shows
I know it’s quite late to do promo, seeing that the show is less than 2 week away.. but nevertheless! PREEE-SENTINGGG….
Yes, you already guessed it–I’m playing a role in it hence the shameless promo, ha ha.
Showtimes are~
25th December: 10.00am & 8.00pm
26th December: 2.30pm & 8.00pm
27th December: 7.30pm
5 SHOWS, LADIES AND GENTLEMEN!
You will require a ticket for entry, but tickets are FOC! They are merely to prevent overflow of the auditorium.
However, I heard that tickets are running out really fast, so please check out my church’s website for more information!
What’s the musical about? Well, its a journey following the Lee Family through the Christmas season, and the various events that crop up along the wau. The central message of the musical is that there is more to life. If you’re expecting a shiny, Las-Vegas-y musical filled with sinful fun and delinquents, you’ll be surprised. Season of the Year! takes Christmas and life down to a gritty, truthful, even uncomfortable, core.
My character is the daughter in the family. If you want to know what she’s like, you have to watch it to understand. All I can say is that it’s been a real challenge to undertake the role because she’s nothing like me in real life… You might be afraid of me even, haha.
Nothing to do for Christmas? Interested in seeing a great show for free? Call the SIBKL office at +603-7957 2701 now!
SEE YOU THERE! :DD
Filed under: Reflective | Tags: christmas, church, events, imu life, outings, projects, updates
Yup. It’s been an okay week. Despite not being able to meet my 1.30 target bedtime since the “treatment” plan started on Monday night, I’m on track with everything else. Tonight, I was able to write about 50% of my selectives report, leaving the other half for when I get more data about the treatment phase in my project. Ah, bliss; one worry lessened. Hung out with Rae & David while writing it. Rae studied for her last exam, which is tomorrow. All the best, love! :) Dea’s at a camp right now, can’t wait for her to come back so we can all hang out and update each other fully!
Also, I bought the OldTown White Coffee 2010 organizer. I couldn’t resist after Rae showed me how she customized hers to look very chio! Having second thoughts now, though–I’m really quite attached to my Starbucks 2009 organizer and was really looking forward to making my own refills… We’ll see how I feel after selectives end and I have less on my mind.
Attended meetings for the IMU Ball and MEDT1/08 convocation magazine planning this week. There’s a lot to do, and not that much time left; need to make good use of time. We have good committees for both things, so hopefully the enthusiasm keeps up and everything falls into place before deadlines creep up on us. Semester 5 won’t be as light as Semester 4, especially with the heavy-duty MSK & CNS!
Musical rehearsals aren’t letting up anytime soon, with performance dates approaching mercilessly. Oh, if you want to attend, you need to tell me by Friday so that I can put in my request for tickets! They’re fast running out. For more information, see the Facebook invite that I sent out for “Season of the Year! the Musical“. :) It’ll be held in my church, SIBKL. A 5-performance run beginning Christmas day. You get to see me play an interesting character–very unlike who I am in real life. It’s been a real journey. The script for the musical is completely original, as are the songs (with the exception of one parody). Admission is free, so what are you waiting for?
It’s a little sad that I can’t do much in the days leading up to Christmas–will be heavily involved in the final practices for the musical. But at the same time, when all the performance excitement is over, I’ll hunger for more again… Self-control, Jade! There’s a flipside to every coin. :)
I’m in a strange mood right now. Don’t know how to describe it–somewhat peaceful and wistful about life.
Had a nice dream yesterday.
(Could be the caffeine from the xi mut milk tea I had earlier.)
As you all know, I am (unwillingly) doing psychology a.k.a. BS for my selectives.
60% of my mark will be determined by a behaviour modification experiment applied to myself, and then presented in the form of a 2.5k-word written report.
Because I am cool like that and like to amuse myself in small ways, this experiment is henceforth referred to as NUIT 0130 (nuit means “night” in French).
Therefore, I will be conducting an experiment on myself where I will lose RM5 for every half hour I sleep past 1.30am for the next 7 days (last day will be Sunday, December 13th).
What should she do with this money (if there is any)?
Suggestions open now.
Full article can be found on Yahoo! News.
How terrible is that!? What a prime example of the damage that ignorance about HIV/AIDS can do.
A 35-year old man injected his HIV+ blood into his sleeping wife, so that she would start having sex with him again. What a sinister way to go about it–says something about the level of trust in that relationship. Strangely enough, when he discovered he was HIV+, his wife and two children weren’t. Hmm. I wonder what happened in between the 2nd child and his infection.
On the wife’s part… though sex is one of the ways for the transmission of HIV, protected sex will very, very greatly lower the chance of transmission. HIV is transmitted through blood and body fluids (such as vaginal & seminal fluid), and can enter the body through contact with minor abrasions or by penetrating the mucous membranes of the anus or vagina. I don’t think it’s fair for her to have denied her husband his needs. Having said that, her husband’s response was totally uncalled-for.
And guess what puts the icing on the cake? Even though the woman is now infected with a slowly-killing virus, all the man will get is 14 years in jail. What does that do for her??? How long more will she live to take care of her children? Are her children even old enough to understand what will be slowly killing their mother?? =/ That is such a disgustingly selfish act! He should be charged with murder, not willfully transmitting an infectious disease. Pshh.
It chills me to think that people are capable of such an act–either he didn’t fully understand the consequences of his actions, or he’s truly, maliciously injecting her. Shudder, shudder, shudder! :( I am heartbroken for this lady. Can’t even begin to imagine what she must have felt upon waking up and seeing her treacherous husband beside her, guiltily staring at what he had done.
HIV is such a horrible infection… It’s only in this imperfect, sin-ridden world that such horrors can enter the body. Picture yourself living on the outside, but on the inside, all your body’s defense walls are just breaking down. It makes you so weak, that anything else can come in and take charge of your body. Even the commensal microorganisms that used to live in harmony with your body rebel and turn on you. You fight yourself, or the lack thereof.
Sigh. Goes to show, for all mankind’s stolid achievements, there are still these tiny, micro-invaders that spit in our faces, reminding us of our innate fragility. Humbling, isn’t it?
My new blog design makes me not want to make any ranty slash emotional posts–
It’s too festive for such content. (yet appropriate for the season)
You know what’s difficult? Shutting off one side of your brain, i.e. the side that’s wired for attraction to the opposite sex, while having to spend extended periods of time with the said stimuli, who, at the same time, shows no interest or indications of such thoughts. Hmm.
Yes. I am being vague, and for very good reasons.
It’s strange, also, when you and I talk, and it’s still fun. Like that one night when I drew and cut out stars and made a star jar of sorts. Familiarity with a new flavor, a new twist. Almost sadistic, because I keep coming back for a taste, again and again. I discover something new each time, and it helps, sorta.
I was looking back on old posts as I properly tagged them, and this has constantly taken up a significant number.
Also:
My biological clock is screwed up, big-time.
Filed under: Excitement, Pictures, Shoutouts | Tags: christmas, dumb moments, events, God stuff, imu life, presents, sugar
NB: Long post, so it’s been truncated into a “click me to read more” format. :)
So! These two days have been nonstop days of sugar and fun. :)) MERRY CHRISTMAS! For this year’s Christmas celebration by IMU’s CF+CSS (Christian Fellowship + Catholic Students’ Society), I didn’t sing/perform, but instead, I helped plan the doorgifts. I love making pretty things (and no, Ben, not babies).
Yesterday, the CF peoples helped make the doorgifts, which were customized bookmarks + shiny plastic star accessory + swirly lollipop + pretty ribbon! I’d pre-bought everything on Monday & Tuesday, so it was just an assembly line last night as we bertungkus-lumus-ed to finish making all 450 of the gifts… phew!
A separate bunch of 24 were also made for lecturers/staff, which were decorated tealight candles + glass tealight holders wrapped up in fancy tissue wrap. The extras ended up being given out as trivia prizes. Many thanks to everyone who helped to make the doorgifts: those who sketched stars, cut the stars, punched holes in the bookmarks & stars, glued the bookmarks, cut the ribbons, tied the ribbons… et cetera. :) Many hands really made the work more enjoyable & faster!
Back to today!
